LOSER MOM

snow, February 15th, 2013, Green Lake, Paths 033Parenting is humbling. Parenting teenagers can be downright humiliating. While we instruct and correct we must do so carefully and lovingly, lest we ourselves become the object lessons to our juvenile audience.

Yes, I admit, I am a loser. Let me explain. Last night my kids went with a bunch of their friends on a ski-trip. While they were waiting for the bus, I noticed that my oldest was loosely tucking away a ring we had recently bought him in his coat pocket. When I saw how uncaring he treated this fairly pricy piece of jewelry, I started to give him a piece of my mind. I told him he better give it to me, since his little regard for our gift was so evident. I took it from him, rather annoyed. I safely put it away, knowing it would not get lost on the ski-slopes.

I was definitely right about that. However, this morning I could not find the ring for the life of me. The only thing I remembered, that I had stuck it in my own coat pocket to keep it safe. Now, it was gone. I turned my coat, purse, and half the house apart to find it, no luck.

I started to pray and asked the Lord to help me remember. I did remember. It occurred to me that I had gone to the store after dropping the kids off, and had put my keys, list, and change in the same coat pocket. I must had dropped the ring while pulling any one of those items out.

I grabbed my hat and keys and rushed to the store. Maybe the ring had fallen out in the parking lot. I looked my son in the eyes and told him what had happened. All he said was, “Don’t worry, Mom. It will be OK.”

While driving down the highway, I prayed and told the Lord how sorry I was for not taking better care of the things he had given me. Conviction rushed in over my pride. I looked down, and there in a small storage compartment lay the ring. I had pulled the ring out of my coat the night before and set it down, right here.

I have been asking myself some questions today. How can my Heavenly Father entrust me with something so precious as my life? How often do I fail to see the value of my own life? How often do I loosely squander away the time and waste the gifts He gives me? How readily do I give Him EVERYTHING for safekeeping? Do I think I can do a better job of keeping life safe?

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“Father, help me to surrender every part of my life. You are able to care for it. You are able to keep me safe, so much better than I am. Help me to see what parts of my life need to be placed in your safekeeping. Help me to trust You more than I trust myself.”

For this reason I also suffer these things, but I am not ashamed; for I know whom I have believed and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day. Retain the standard of sound words which you have heard from me, in the faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. Guard, through the Holy Spirit who dwells in us, the treasure which has been entrusted to you.

(2 Timothy 1:12)

About Heidi Viars

“If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end; if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth ...” ― C.S. Lewis ..... In my pursuit of self, I found utter darkness. In my pursuit of truth, I found Jesus, who dispelled the darkness by His forgiveness. Now I follow Him and try to understand Him better. I am a wife, mother of 6, blogger and love taking photographs of sunrises.
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4 Responses to LOSER MOM

  1. Heidi Viars says:

    Hello Karen,
    Yes, the Lord uses our children to teach us all these lessons in humility, dying to self, and unconditional love (and at times, how to laugh at ourselves 🙂 … thanks for you kind comment! Blessings to you!

  2. Karen says:

    Hi Heidi,
    Years ago when I was driving my son to a hair cut appointment, I was stopped by the police for speeding. the schedule was tight, of course, so speeding just this once seemed rational. guess what we had been talking about- or rather what I was lecturing about? Yep- How the law was for our protection and I wanted my 16 year old son to be sure to follow the law for his own sake and the sake of others…God does have a way of putting a mirror up for us to look at and reflect who we really are back to us…with gentleness and a sense of humor! Blessings! Love reading your beautiful reflections!

  3. Heidi Viars says:

    Thanks Wendy, for your comment … I am so grateful for His patience with me … grateful He is now and also that He was back then, when I was lost, somewhere in a heap of tossed out junk, waiting to be found … YES!!! He did … come for me … cleaned me up with Christ’s blood … and now calls me precious and beloved … unfathomable!!!!
    Hoping you find jewels today, namely glimpses of our amazing God 🙂

  4. Heidi, I can sure relate to this post! Recently I lost one of my gold rings while gardening. I had chastised my daughter for losing jewelry not long before this. Meantime I apologized to her and she ended up finding my ring in the compost pile!! I have since given her one of my other gold rings that had been my mom’s and she is treating it like ‘gold’. Parenting is definitely humbling. God is infinitely more patient and reliable than me.

    Blessings ~ Wendy

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