Of Death and Celebration

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I grew up in a village in southwest Germany. My childhood was filled with Catholic traditions and celebrations. A small church, and the graveyard that surrounded it, were the center of the town in every way. After mass we stopped and prayed at the graves of loved ones. There were the graves of our great grandparents, grandparents, friends and children of friends. We took time to remember those who passed and our own mortality.  
We tended those graves, planted flowers in the spring and pulled weeds and watered in the summer. We stuck small shrubs in the ground in fall and always lit a red grave candle and placed it on the stone.

There were other traditions. In June we picked wild flowers in the fields and made altars in front of our homes. We said our prayers there, too. We swept the streets and scrubbed the sidewalks. We cut the grass and trimmed the bushes, made everything presentable. Then we joined the procession with the priest leading. He walked under a cloth canopy and carried the body of Christ in a golden monstrance. He led the congregation to several outside altars. He was the only one allowed to walk on the flower-carpets, which the women had prepared. As a little girl, I remember wishing I could just walk once on that carpet and get close to such holiness. 

When I was older, I left those traditions and altars, moved far away from the small town and fields, from the hills and the woods. I tried to find my own traditions. I questioned what I should remember and what to forget. I always looked for Jesus, and wondered if He ever escaped from under that canopy and came out of the monstrance.

I did find Him, but not in any traditions or in inapproachable holiness. Actually, He found me – in a dark room at the end of my rope and without a shred of hope. I was planning to end my life.

That’s how He finds many people. That’s how He found His friends over two thousand years ago. They were unable to celebrate and felt abandoned and alone. They had lost their hope, too. They were heading to His grave, trying to tend his decaying body.

If you are feeling sadness this Easter because so many things are different and you can’t celebrate like you did before, let Jesus find you. Let Him show you that He overcame death and the grave. He is as near as you need Him to be. He never leaves nor forsakes. He has power over death and victory over sin. Because … He is risen. He is risen indeed.

Acts 2:24
God raised him up, loosing the pangs of death,
because it was not possible for him to be held by it.

40 responses to “Of Death and Celebration”

  1. Linda Lee/Lady Quixote Avatar
    Linda Lee/Lady Quixote

    I know I read this last year, but I just read it again. Thank God He found you and you found Him! He is risen indeed!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      You are one of the kindest encouragers to me. Your love and heart for God spills out of your words and soul. THANK YOU!!! HE is RISEN!

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  2. Lynn J Simpson Avatar

    I’ve always wondered about the fear and sadness those disciples would have felt that day, huddled and scared in a room. And then Jesus appears! What amazement they must have had. Yes, Jesus appears and is with us in our saddest of times and never, ever leaves us!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Thank you, Lynn for reading. I am so grateful that His presence doesn’t depend on my ability to find Him. He makes Himself known to His children and then He stays with them 🙂 Blessings to you, Lynn.

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  3. Trudy Den Hoed Avatar

    Thank you for sharing a painful part of your story, Heidi. And how Jesus found you in your brokenness. He is risen indeed. Thank you for encouraging me today. Love and blessings to you!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Thank you, Trudy, for reading. He is indeed a pursuing God. Blessings to you as well, dear friend!

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  4. Jeanne Takenaka Avatar

    Heidi, this is beautiful. Thank you for sharing a piece of your testimony. You are so right, so many times we hear people say (and perhaps we’ve said), “I’m searching for Jesus.” The truth is, He finds us. When our hearts are ready to see Him, He’s already there by our sides. I so appreciate your gentle encouragements, my friend.

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Thanks for reading, Jeanne. He is so close … especially to the brokenhearted! Blessings to you and your fam ❤️

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  5. Bill Sweeney Avatar

    Wonderful post, Heidi. God finds us in the darkest of times. I’m so glad He found you. The flower carpet is really cool!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      As you know Bill, He truly is our Light. The saddest part was back then that I didn’t even know I was in darkness. ~
      My mom is part of the group of women who arrange the blossoms into these amazing pieces of art every year … yes, very cool.

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  6. Nancy Ruegg Avatar

    I did not remember you were once close to taking your own life, when Jesus stepped in to rescue you and give you hope. Praise God for His transformation power, saving you from the brink of destruction, and bringing you to a place of strong faith and influence in the lives of others–including mine! Many blessings to you, dear Heidi, on this day after Easter!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Jesus found me in the middle of a big mess many years ago. I tried making it right by taking my life, but then He showed me that He had already made it right by giving His. Maybe one day, I get up the courage to tell the story. Thanks for your kindness, dear Nancy. Yes, praise God!!!!

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  7. Leslie Gearing Avatar
    Leslie Gearing

    Beautiful message Heidi. Most of this past week was a struggle….trying to make Holy week Holy and not knowing how….everything I tried to read, or do, or pray seemed to be attacked until tears finally fell….and then it was Easter….God’s plan fulfilled…..and my hope was renewed

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      I am so grateful, dearest Leslie, for your renewed hope. Keep letting it be Easter, even if that means to shed tears. … Yes, that we could keep hanging on to His hope. Hugs to you, my friend.

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  8. Eric Saretsky Avatar

    sometimes our traditions (habits, etc) get in the way of seeing Jesus. Even when we know better, over time we may not recognize Jesus working in our circumstances. But if we are truly ‘in Christ’, he will call us, for his purpose – ex- sharing with someone during this virus – and help them become a disciple of Jesus. wonderful Easter post!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      For me they get in the way more often than I like to admit. Thanks, Eric, for you words of encouragement. Blessing to you!

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      1. seekingdivineperspective Avatar

        How true, Eric. I’ve found that in my life those habits can become a subtle form of idolatry, like when we always have devotions in the same place, we start to think that’s where God is. I recently cleared out a closet to be my “War Room” (like in the movie). I have loved having my prayer time there, because it’s quiet and shut off from distractions and has all my prayer requests there (and a big map of the world on the wall). But the other day I just had to go outside and pray while walking my dog, so I wouldn’t start thinking that I couldn’t pray unless I went into my (literal) prayer closet!

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        1. Heidi Viars Avatar

          I can so relate, Ann … He invites us to seek His face … intimately … always being careful to not let devotion turn into rote.

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  9. SaaniaSparkle 🧚🏻‍♀️ Avatar

    Hope you had a lovely Easter🐣❤️

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Hope you did, too Saania 🙂 Thanks for reading!

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  10. SaaniaSparkle 🧚🏻‍♀️ Avatar

    Hope you had a lovely Easter! 💖

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  11. acquelinewhyte51 Avatar

    I just want to thank you, Heidi, for today’s blog that you wrote. Thank you for sharing how Jesus found you. You’re so right, we don’t find Him, He finds us.What you shared about needing Jesus very close this Easter, really spoke to my heart. In fact, I believe that this last paragraph you wrote actually confirmed to my heart what Jesus said to me a short while ago. I know that Jesus wants to comfort us when we’re afraid. That’s exactly what He did when I read what you wrote! It’s as if the weight of the world just rolled off of my shoulders…….Thanks be to God!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Thank you so much for reading, dear friend. The world seems be especially burdened these days, yet He still stoops to us individually and assures us of His great love. What a beautiful Savior! Blessings to you, as you embrace this week with its challenges and joys. Yes, thanks be to God! 🤗

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  12. Lesley Avatar
    Lesley

    Oh Heidi, I’m sorry to hear you had felt such despair. But you’re right, it’s often when we’re at our lowest that we’re able to reach out to him.
    I would love to visit Germany one day, particularly Bavaria and Berlin.
    🙏💞

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      You would love Germany. When we were kids we vacationed in the Bavarian Alps many times. So beautiful. I hope we all get to enjoy traveling again soon … Thanks, Leslie, for reading and commenting. 💞

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      1. Lesley Avatar
        Lesley

        Thanks Heidi. It’s something to look forward to! x

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  13. Anna Waldherr Avatar

    Wishing you a Happy Easter, Heidi! ❤

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Wishing you a Happy Easter, too, Anna ❤️

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  14. Lady Quixote/Linda Lee Avatar
    Lady Quixote/Linda Lee

    This is incredibly beautiful, Heidi. He is risen indeed!

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      Thank you for reading, Linda. Happy Easter to you and your family (and pups) 🙂

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      1. Lady Quixote/Linda Lee Avatar
        Lady Quixote/Linda Lee

        Thank you. Yesterday I got the terrible news that my granddaughter and her husband tested positive for covid-19. They live in New York state, very far from where I live in New Mexico. My emotions were all over the place yesterday. But right now, after 24 hours of fasting and praying, I am at peace. I know God is still on the throne.

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        1. Heidi Viars Avatar

          Linda, I prayed … that they will be at the pease you are, knowing that Jesus has overcome. Wishing you a beautiful Resurrection Sunday despite these trying days.

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          1. Lady Quixote/Linda Lee Avatar
            Lady Quixote/Linda Lee

            Thank you! ❤

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        2. Nancy Ruegg Avatar

          Adding my prayers to yours, Linda Lee, for your granddaughter and her husband. May God’s power and glory be manifested through their healing!

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          1. Lady Quixote/Linda Lee Avatar
            Lady Quixote/Linda Lee

            Amen!

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  15. fuelfortheraceblog Avatar

    “Let Jesus find you”. Great phrase. Mary Magdalene would agree from her experience in the garden by the tomb. Happy Easter, Heidi. – Alan

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    1. Heidi Viars Avatar

      I can’t wait to talk to her one day and get the scoop. “Seriously, how could you not know it was Him? The Gardener … for real?”
      Thanks, Alan and Happy Easter to you and yours.

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      1. seekingdivineperspective Avatar

        Hey, give the lady a break. 😉 It might have still been dark, and no doubt her eyes were probably swollen practically shut from crying. At least I know I’d be in that state …
        Heidi, I had no idea you once intended to end your life! One would never know it now, seeing the beautiful smile on your face. What a testimony to God’s resurrection power!

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        1. Heidi Viars Avatar

          I agree with you, Ann 🙂 I’d only give her a hard time because I would want to distract from all those times Jesus was standing right next to me and I didn’t recognize Him … I bawled and blew my nose and carried on … all long he was standing there waiting to say, “Heidi …” …. makes me teary eyed even thinking about it now. He is so good to us, isn’t He, Ann! ❤️

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          1. seekingdivineperspective Avatar

            Oh, Heidi, how sweet! ❤ You and Mary will have a lot to talk about when you meet. 😉

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