I am sitting here in the middle of summer, bogged down by winter.
In early spring our roof partially collapsed from the weight of ice and snow.

We noticed our dilemma in the middle of April after the snow finally melted. Since then we have been busy with insurance adjusters, structural engineers, desk adjusters, and eventually a builder. All have come to the same conclusion, namely that a complete tear-off is necessary before more snow comes. This process includes the removal of the entire roof structure. Shingles, decking, rafters, fascia boards, and gutters all have to go. At this point we hope we don’t have to remove insulation, ceiling joists and ceilings. Our insurance claim for the de- and reconstruction of the roof has moved from a regular desk adjuster to one who handles catastrophes.

The term deconstruction was recently used by a Christian who examined his faith by taking it apart and ultimately rejecting it. The word comes out of philosophy and was popularized by a scholar named Jacques Derrida. According to Wikipedia, “Deconstruction denotes the pursuing of the meaning of a text to the point of exposing the supposed contradictions and internal oppositions upon which it is founded—supposedly showing that those foundations are irreducibly complex, unstable, or impossible.” While carefully considering and critically thinking about a text are important, deconstruction’s teardown of meaning seems to me a catastrophic endeavor.

I am eager for my contractor to get here and take down our roof. I am even more eager to get it put back together. There are many concerns I have. Are long periods of rain causing damage while the roof is gone? What about all the debris? Will the ceilings stay intact? Can we stay here while the construction is going on? How long will it take?

What is far more concerning than the deconstruction and reconstruction of my house is the deconstruction of the Christian faith and Scriptures that some are performing. In the case of my roof, we hired someone who knows much more about construction than we do. Our builder knows how to read an engineer’s report, about weight distribution, and knows his math. He has a measuring tape and knows how to use his tools. When it comes to faith, we have a Master Builder who is able to answer our doubts and questions. He invites us to reason with Him and come to Him with lament when the world doesn’t make sense. Tearing down faith without consulting and trusting the One Who knows us might leave us without a roof over our soul and eventually out in the cold.


“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 



“And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”
Colossians 1:17



“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.”
Hebrews 11:6 




  1. its tough to even find a good trustworthy contractor

    lots of scammers here who get a poor job done for folks who dont know much about construction (like me)

    very much feel for you and am so glad that part of your recontruction is done (finding the dude) and all those adjuster folks

    encouraging post and photos!


    • It took us all summer to figure things out … This Wednesday this place will turn into a construction zone … I better get hard hat! I had several people ask if I heard what the Farmer’s Almanac predicted … guess what … snow really early 😱… but then snow might be better than rain… I shovel that stuff … rain … not so much


  2. Dear Heidi, I hope the whole process concerning your home goes smoother than you believed possible. I pray it becomes a bonding time for your family. These wonderful words of yours encouraged me: “He invites us to reason with Him and come to Him with lament when the world doesn’t make sense.”
    God is good.
    Blessings ~ Wendy Mac

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  3. Heidi, wow, wow, WOW. That’s a lot to manage. I’m so sorry you and your family are walking through this with your roof. That must be a bit unsettling. But, you’re right, there is a Master Builder managing your project, managing you, and caring for you.

    It is a scary thing to see people try to deconstruct Christianity and what it means to walk in faith. I was so saddened to learn someone I respected walked away from faith not too long ago. The impact of this has the potential to devastate many lives. We must remember to Whom we cling and trust, and hold firmly to Him, even when other things in life seem to be unstable.

    I hope your roof is rebuilt quickly, and that there isn’t too much rain before it’s finished!

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    • Jeanne, thank you for your kind comment. I am saddened, too to see people fall away. While I don’t like to add one more voice to the cacophony of voices out there, I also feel strongly to be a watchman on the wall. I read this story (I am retelling it as I remember).
      “A farmer once had a donkey. He had grown tired of feeding him expensive oats. Then he had an idea. Slowly he added a little sawdust to the feed to save on the oats. The donkey seemed fine and didn’t notice a difference in his feed. The farmer liked that he saved money and replaced the oats with sawdust – a little more each day. Then one day the farmer fed the donkey an entire load of sawdust. The donkey ate it as usual, never realizing he had been fed only sawdust. When he finished eating he fell over and died.”
      Dear, dear Jeanne, lets make sure we never walk away from the real food of the WORD OF GOD… no matter what the cost!
      Thanks for living and writing for Jesus.


  4. Thank you, Heidi! You did it again, teaching from what is actually going on, giving us visuals and scripture that will stick with us. When you began describing our Master Builder and what He does, the tears started to flow. So so thankful that we can trust Him. He is faithful to finish what He has started. Love and prayers as you get your new roof!


    • Sweet Debbie, I feel the same way about our Master Builder. He does not desire for His children to be out in the cold. He wants us to build our lives on His firm foundation. Why do we doubt and fear so much? We can confidently give Him our all. Yes, He is faithful to finish what he has started. Thanks for your prayers, friend!


  5. I love these scripture verses that you have referred to here, Heidi. Just the other day, Hebrews 11:6 was brought home to me in a new way. If I don’t trust God or have faith in Him when I need to, it is sin, for that is how I please Him. I have since, asked His forgiveness. At the same time I’ve asked Him to help me to have faith in Him by the power of the Holy Spirit. Reading this verse here now in your blog just confirmed to me that I received God’s message to my heart and I’ve done the right thing. Thank you Heidi for writing what pleases Him.


    • Praise God for HIs Word that never returns void.
      “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.”
      Hebrews 4:12
      Blessings to you, dear blog friend!


  6. Believing for a quick turnaround for you Heidi. Perfect weather. Perfect alignment. A quick resolution. Love that quote above … makes me think, that I am stuck in a cottage mindset (you know the cute English cottage with the beautiful rose garden, and the white picket fence), and not allowing the renovations, because I am too comfortable in what I am familiar with, wary of change. Bless you.


    • Thanks for those believing prayers for our roof. They are much appreciated 🙂 Thank you, dear Liana, also for your faithful witness and for loving the Lord with passion and resolve … and letting Him build a palace in you!


  7. God doesn’t want to leave us out in the cold either (2 Peter 3:9). I pray that Christian who deconstructed his faith will feel the chill and come back to the Son. I will also pray that your house gets put back together in record time, sturdy and strong for winter!


    • God’s loving kindness and mercy is beyond our comprehension. Yes, may we feel the slightest chill when we leave the door open to the enemy and get back home … Thank you for the prayers for our roof … I am thinking there will be more analogies. I am hoping to post a few … but hopefully none of these:
      “When we saw Stars … from our Couch”
      “When God Makes the Walls Come Down”
      “How to Survive One Week of Rain without a Roof”
      “Repurpose … How to Turn a Roof into a Boat”
      I M.U.S.T. stop 🙂
      Thanks, Nancy!!!


  8. Amen Heidi. I second Bill’s sentiments too. I love what you said about trusting the Master Builder. We are NOT builders much less master builders. We are the building and that’s about it. May we continue to be discerning and pliable in our Master’s hands so that we do not end up doing what we not created to do or causing others to do the same.

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    • Yes, Deandra, we are only the building.
      Amen to being pliable! I am inspired by Bill’s comment and C.S. Lewis’ quote as well, especially that we are being made into a palace … to house the God who made us. Such comfort to know.
      Thanks for stopping in, blog friend.

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      • Happy to stop by at your blogging home.

        Me too, Heidi with that comment by Bill and C.S. Lewis (even these decades later). Yes, it is comforting that all these pulling down and hammering and everything in between is working out something great and beautiful.

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  9. What a mess, Heidi. I like the way you tied the project into a lesson about the reconstruction God is doing in us. It reminded me of a passage from CS Lewis’ Mere Christianity:
    “Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

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    • Bill, that is an amazing quote. I will print this out and put it by my sink… you know, my Holy Place 🙂 Man, it’s tough though when He gets the bulldozer out and says, “We have to start all over!” 🙂
      We can trust Him. He really knows what He is doing!!!! Thanks, friend

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