I got out of the car and was looking so forward to the stillness and maybe a few good shots with my camera. Not far into the walk, I realized I was in some serious trouble. The entire path was covered in ice and looked more like a skating rink than a path through the woods. All the rain lately had melted the snow and froze into this treacherous sheet of ice. I took a few steps and realized that I had to slow down, way down. Part of me wanted to turn around, but part of me did not want to miss out on my intimate time with God.
I could hardly look up. I had to stay focused on each step. I felt foolish for having attempted this silly walk. At one point I heard a crow up in the tree above. Its cackling sound reminded me of someone laughing at me.
For the entire walk (three miles) I took one tiny step after another, one foot in front of the other. It was getting more difficult as the paths wound around corners and started to slope. I felt myself getting discouraged and sensed tears making their way down my face. I asked the Lord what the point was here. It felt the path in front was too long. I longed to be home with a nice cup of coffee and some breakfast.
Then I felt His presence, a gentle tuck at my heart. “You are in these seasons of your life because I have prepared them along with the other seasons. The ground beneath you is hardened by constant change. Here, you get to take each day just like you take your steps now, carefully and slowly. Be assured that I am with you. You can only see and feel ice beneath you. You feel your feet slipping, You can’t look up but only see the agony of the next step. Trust in my steadfast hold. You are not capable of walking steadfastly on this path. I am. I see you and hold you even here, in the palm of my hand. Cling to me. I love you so much, not because of your ability to walk beautifully, but because I have made you for myself. Trust me!”
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)